This year is the second most popular year on the site. Passed 550 views!

Trying to make it the most, which would be doubling it.

But most important, it means I need to keep up on working on it. Trying to keep those consistent posts/buffer coming!

Poetry posts:

“Desirae:

There once was a Princess,

Who dressed as a pauper;

Who thought she would die,

If she lived any softer.

Even in her tower,

Of Ivory white;

She was depressed,

And cried every night.

If she would start,

Her Path Anew;

She’d have to learn how,

“To thine own self be true.”

 

Don’t lose your way, Desirae.”

One of the poems that I wrote while either figuring out my name, working through emotions as I got the name, or the piece I did for my performance that I will be posting within the next week. It’s a fairy tale like aesthetic, for sure. The content, however, about various different themes relating to get my name back. I also refer to this in many of the life update comics, and use lines from this poem even in that performance piece.

In this poem I talk about how engaging with being open with who I was (and that not fitting masculine norms) seemed to increase certain outside threats, or perceived ones. It’s also briefly mentions that this place was a strange one for me to be in, because of my privileged experience. Being white, growing up in Suburbia, even some of the social/ familial support I have now. In the same breath that recognizing that I had grown up lucky, or have supportive parents (which many queer folk don’t), and other resources, it was still a struggle growing up hiding who I was. It was like the very tower that protected me felt like a cell I was caged in, and it was and is hard to wrap my head around.

The pauper thing played into that too. Not just as a kid, but in all ages I felt this weird tug-of-war. This contradiction. Dressing up fashionable seemed to signify possible queerness, in ways, but not being up to snuff also could be socially ostracizing. So, the line about dressing as a pauper, is almost literal. I didn’t know I had ADD as a kid though I exhibited a lot of extremes of various symptoms even up to this very day. So, because I couldn’t channel masculinity in athleticism or other means, I kinda used the closet as an excuse to be a mess before I knew what the closet was. Being a mess/slob had more of a “guy” connotation. So as frustrating and self defeating as the symptoms were, I felt safer in that space. I could be a mess and not get beaten up for being a “@#$,” cool. Yeah. But I was still weird, stained, ripped, unfashionable little monster. Who often got by pure chance in school because I was never organized in terms of studying, either. Yeah. That had no negative repercussions. Not a one! But the idea of being the princess dressed as pauper facilitates that whole “if I went out doing what I really wanted to do, I would be more exposed and less safe than I was.” How much of it was paranoia? How much did I play into the bullshit I was so upset over while trying to survive and stay safe? Who knows. It was Juvenile and tacky. More ways than one.

So if I wanted to grow past all that? I had to start accepting myself, and grow on that path. That ties into the ending parts, and the last line, a lot. Also, the “don’t lose your way” line is from an Anime where the girl is an action hero, and it stuck with me in terms of theming. For all the times I was told to “be the best you can be” (lol) and that I should “be myself” or that I had a God given talent, or I was loved and appreciated unconditionally, that I should stay on the “straight and narrow…” there was nothing more confusing and isolating than being in the closet. The ways told me to move forward were often exactly how I got lost to begin with. And if I was to really bloom, come into my own, I had to accept this side of me. All themes in my performance piece.

Okay, so that was long. But that’s it for now! Hopefully if I have other stuff written, poetry or prose, I will try to post some of it! This has some elements of “15 year old just starting to write” but I am proud of it, cause it was one of the first poems I had written in years. 

So hope you enjoyed, and see you around!

 

Forgot to fix the like and sharing options for my Comics.

Whoops.

Fixed now, though!

So if you want to like and share my stuff, it’s possible now! Yay.

And I am literally just saying that, and nothing else. That the possibility is now available.

Not that I would really love for you to check out my stuff and like or share or anything, or how much that would mean to me.

More just, that you can.

*sweats nervously*

Audio updates for comics:

For the audio recordings for visually impaired folks, either search YouTube for “Stoodmuffincomics; Audio updates,” or following the link here, will take you right to the playlist with them as soon as they are uploaded.

The idea is to have an Audio book/describe video kind of deal for the comics, so people can enjoy them even if they can’t see them. With some of the small rants I do on posts, TTS sounded like a nightmare because it would take a long time to get through the descriptions and the captions I have on posts. Though, this could be slower due to potential band width.

If this option doesn’t work? Let me know. Maybe I could find away to balance it with TTS? Just trying new things to make things more accessible. Let me know if it helps you or your loved ones out? Or if it doesn’t?

Thanks,

Sincerely,

Stoodmuffin.

 

 

Paper doll test and comparison.

Comparison

Trying to get better at making her consistent, so I tried a new thing. Still kinda rough, though, cause I’m not sure how to do certain aspects of it. Eh. Need to work on figure drawing anyway, lol.

Hope you enjoy!

My brother is making Fic by a fan. A work of fiction for, and by, someone who enjoys a work. What’s the term? Hmm.

Come check me out! https://archiveofourown.org/users/falconlord5

via I’m On Archive Of Our Own! — The Shadowed Universe

#stoodmuffinstuff

Look at what came in the mail today, folks!

The reason I’m kinda having a mega nervous panic react to Net neutrality stuff is this:

Imagine the issue of the YouTube algorithm. Funny enough,  Google right hand video man is a perfect, slightly Ironic case study.

See, YouTube was scared that, because Netflix has longer programs, they would have to struggle to compete. One Netflix show could be worth hundreds of shorter videos. Think about “Stranger Things.” That thing is a gold mine and millions of people tuned into Benge the season. Now there are two of them. That’s a lot of time folks are on Netflix and that’s not time they are spending on YouTube.  

And Netflix isn’t the only streaming competetion on town AND people are still pirating. Time spent away from YouTube. This means advertisers losses insentive to run ads on YouTube.  Or even less of your YouTube searches to sell to advertisers. 

So what is its solution? Making an algorithm that promotes longer form content. 

Now that makes sense, right? But part of the reason I enjoy YouTube IS bite sized content pieces. How many times, just like episodes on Netflix,  you say you are going to watch one video specifically? How often does that lead you down a chain of videos and you forget how much time has passed? I know I’m not the only one. 

And short content videos have a place in terms of value. Though vine went under, it was once a super popular app and vine compilations still exist on YouTube.  Many vines moved from vine to YouTube and gained massive followings during the change. Because there was a demand for the content. Regardless if you liked the content, the demand was still there.

But YouTube changed the algorithm anyway. The first thing that happened was people getting seemingly random suggestions in their recommendations. This caused confusion because part of what makes YouTube great is you search for the content you want. Sometimes it’s nice to be popped out your bubble for something new, but it wasn’t about broad ing perspectives. It was about a cynical approach that thought it couldn’t keep its users with the creators that established themselves on the site. 
Now, doesn’t that sound like a big slap in the face of YouTubers?  Like “yeah sorry guys we know you draw in millions of views a day, that even the smallest of you draws in a few and if you times that by how many you are, that’s STILL millions of views.  Never mind the mid sized or bigger names.  But, we can’t trust that emperor al evidence to say we have something good here, so here are random trends to replace you solely to stay afloat.”

Now that is a bit trickier and may have more variables. But the next thing this algorithm did was not. Lots of sketches, info bites, cat videos and other content built their success of of short for education and entertainment. So many of those will have to make longer videos, which can be harder for those starting or don’t have companies and “teams” behind them (Fine Brothers/ Game theorists to name a couple). It also incentivisies long compilations of stolen content. Like the vines I mentioned earlier to streaming whole series and shows that YouTube tries to Crack down on. Which is kinda funny considering both illegal and legal streaming sites were their competition in the first place. 

But this doesn’t even get into Animations. YouTube and online animations have been a integral part of Internet culture, but they can be highly intensive. 

Animation is done by professional studios at 24 frames per second. That’s so 10 mins of video at 60 seconds per min is 600 seconds. That’s 14, 400 frames for a video that would be picked up by the algorithm. Even if you HALF that that’s STILL a lot for often  one person to do, even with a program to help. 

Though a few animation channels have been lucky, that might be in part because they had followings BEFORE the change. That’s speculation, but not unfounded because of it can be difficult to start to build a following if you haven’t already. Cause a LOT of hours of content are uploaded to YouTube.  But even then it can be hard for even people who have BUILT these followings to keep up if they aren’t making longer videos. If the weird recommendations was maybe a slap in the face to YouTubers,  this sure is.

Again, this isn’t even getting into the politics, tastes, or quality of videos and their consumers. The issue about hate speech and the Internet is a long and complex rant for another day. But this is about a company, trying to bolster it’s profits by increasing traffic, that ultimately makes things less accessible. Which means, less traffic.

And THAT’S the TL;DR: of it.  

TL; DR: YouTube limited access to content, intentionally or not, to increase traffic and projects by making it less open and stacking the cards against certain people who depend on YouTube as a career. 

That’s what ending net neutrality does by making a two tier system in which American cable providers decides what information gets to you, and limits your ability to decide for yourself. 

An even shorter version? These companies wound they very markets and people they earn money from in an ironic effort to make more money. They shoot themselves in the foot and somehow set us all on fire? 

If I was going to get partisan for a secomd: I’ve seen people scream about “Orwell- Ian” futures because people can’t be racist or what ever. 

But this is a kick to a nuts to free speech that could only ever dream of being.

This is literally removing voices of the little guy and feeding content to you. Like?

And I mentioned the “selling your searches.” 

“Won’t paying for YouTube get rid the need for them selling mined data from profit?”

You aren’t paying YouTube or Facebook.  You are paying Comcast and verizion for YouTube and Facebook.  If anything they might need to lease for adds more or cheapen the prices of data so they can Pay these other companies to get you their sites at affordible rates. 

Some of this is speculation. But the problem is that some of the most dire affects of this might be to long term that when we notice what bad stuff is happening it will be too late. 

We can’t wait. We need to make noise that this isn’t okay. 

That this will curb growth, not inspire it. 

#savenetneutrailty 

Watch “Hank vs. Hank: The Net Neutrality Debate in 3 Minutes” on YouTube

Watch “Net Neutrality: Last Week Tonight with John Oliver (HBO)” on YouTube